Dear Avie, I’m sitting outside. The air is perfectly set. The sun is shining. Glistening. Moments like these make me yearn for you. Even more so than I already do. Sometimes I think you are inside. Napping. Soon you’ll wake. I’m listening for your cry. My ears search for your perfect voice. Aching for you. Come sit next to me. Take away my fears. Tell me what is it that I need to do. I…

Dear Me, You know what it’s like to love. You’ve felt true love. The Sacrifice. Love conquers everything. You love her more than anything. Keep living. Believe me. You’re not lost. Don’t give up on me. I won’t give up on you. You can be anything you set your mind to. Keep loving me. I will keep loving you. Remember that when you don’t know what to do. Xoxo- Me

Dear Me, You still want to live. Life. You still exist. Boy oh boy you’ve been through some shit. Many people ask “How are you still living?” When you lose someone you love you don’t just die. Even though dying seems like an easier thing than living. You have a choice. If you killed yourself you wouldn’t make it up to heaven. You need to make it to heaven in order to see your baby…

Dear Me, It’s up to you. You have the choice. To live. To love. Be you. What a beautiful thing. You can’t blame anyone one else but yourself. You have the freedom. Take back your life. Live. Love. Spread your wings. The sun is coming up. Don’t be afraid. Take my hand. I will help you along the way. Xoxo- Me

Dear Me, You can’t see the horizon. The sun disappeared. You need to pull yourself back up. Back up from the deep. Torn apart. Broken. If only you could return to the start. Back to before your whole life fell apart. Starting over. Confused. Find out what’s been chasing after you. Make new dreams come true. Xoxo- Me

Dear God, There’s too much weight. I’ve been carrying it on my back. Please help me. Don’t let it crush me. Grief wants to take over me. Signs of death are everywhere. Surrounding me. I know you will help me. You will help pull me back up from where the ground wants me. You won’t let it claim me. Freeing me free from all of the pain. Granting me my release. Delivering me. Xoxo- Me