Dear Avie, Please won’t you come visit me in my sleep? Lately my dreams have no story. Maybe I don’t dream of you because I can’t sleep. I close my eyes and I’ll think of you, my sweet. I’ll gasp for air, hoping to breathe you back in. Your scent is disappearing from the room; disappearing from my nose. I even dug up some of your old dirty clothes, in hopes that I could smell…

Dear Avie, I miss you. I miss you more and more with each passing day. Continuing to search through my memory bank daily, I’m still searching for you. I hope to never lose you.  Even though I’ve lost you from my arms for forever, I can’t lose you from my mind. I ache for you. I sometimes feel like I might die. To die of a broken heart, and a broken soul, never being able…

Dear Avie, Mommy needs help to recover from this pain and suffering. Sometimes it hurts so badly. My heart gets heavy and I can barely breathe. My love for you takes over my soul. I would do anything for you. I would give anything just to be able to have you again. I sit here and I pray for you every day. I pray for me. I love you more than you’ll ever know. My…

Dear Avie, I wish that I could feel you again. I wish that I could smell your soft skin. I made pancakes for you today. I even put some on your Minnie Mouse plate for you. Your coffee cup is filled and ready for you. I ate breakfast at your table this morning, just like we used to do. My mornings aren’t the same without you. The pancakes lacked one important ingredient, you. Is it…

  Dear Avie, Since you have left, I barely sleep at all. I just recently started sleeping with my old stuffed animal Miss Kitty. I snuggle her close in between my arms. It gives me a sort of comfort. Sometimes I pretend that it’s you I’m holding. We used to snuggle all the time, just you and I. You would be wrapped up in me. While snuggling in deeply, you would wrap your arms around…

Dear Avie, Daddy helped pull you out into this world. He handed you to me. I held you on my chest for just a moment, you struggled to breathe. When you came out of Mommy you weren’t breathing. Your body was a purplish blue. I was so scared. I cried out loud. They took you from my chest and laid you on the bed beside the tub. Your Daddy was there by your side. The…