Dear Avie, I want you by my side. You’re holding my writing arm now as we lie here, trying to fall asleep. You turn to me, giving me a big ‘ol kiss, and tell me you love me. A tear creeps down my cheek, a smile slowly comes to be. You’re free now, so free. Won’t you come back to me? Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I took many pictures today. The scenery here is out of this world. The sun is shining on my face. I pictured you here with me on the beach. You would be playing in the white as snow sand. Running your fingers gently through its coarse texture. You would have a mile long smile. My world is not the same without you. Without you by my side, I’m not sure what to do.…

Dear Avie, We sat outside tonight by the fire pit. The stars were out, and the fire was ablaze We looked up at the sky as the clouds parted ways. The man on the moon was clear as day. We sat there for a moment, taking in the night’s sky. Wishing you were here by our side. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I can’t get any relief. No one can compare to you my sweet. When I open my eyes the darkness stays the same, and it doesn’t fade away. The reality sets in. Is this the beginning of the end? Heaven was a place on earth with you. When you left, a piece of me died. I will love you until the end of time. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’m sitting outside daydreaming of you. Searching inside my soul for you. My Love for you is strong. My heart aches for you. The sun is shining on my face. A cold breeze is blowing my hair sideways. The sand sparkles like the snow. The palm trees whisper in the wind as it blows. Nature seems to have a way with connecting you and I even more. I close my eyes to see…

Dear Avie, There will be no more pictures of you. No more birthdays to come. Our mornings together are no longer. No more mornings where we would cuddle on the couch while eating breakfast. All of those moments are gone, but they will forever be in my mind. Now with this pen and paper I will try to define. Sharing this documentation of your life. Forever you will continue to hold me up. Building me…