Dear Avie, Not many can take this pain that keeps stabbing at my heart. My love for you is pouring out. It’s you that’s in my blood now. Your oxygen rich blood flows through me. Your blood travels through my lungs and back up to my heart, only to be poured out once again. Come heal my wounds from within. Through my broken heart you’ve helped me to create art. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Do you believe in life after loss? I don’t know what I’ve been doing, but I know that I’m stronger than I’ve ever been. I need to take this strength and turn the sand into glass; unbreakable glass. Temper not temperamental. Smooth not rough. Jagged edges are not allowed. Careful handling to prevent any cracks. If a crack forms I must fill it quickly, for I do not want to completely shatter. Xoxo-…

  Dear Avie, I’ll be leaving on a jet plane in a few hours. The airport will be full of the hustle and bustle of many other people traveling to their final destinations. I’ll be going back to subzero degree weather. In hopes that the frozen air back home wont also freeze my mind. You’ve been saved my sweet. You’ve been saved from the complications and the heartaches of this world. You’ve been preserved in…

Dear Avie, Today is the last day that I’ll be able to sit and listen to the waves. The flag is off in the distance, waving in the wind. The ocean is a beautiful blue. The steps are calling my name, asking me to walk across the weathered wood. My feet dip into the soft white sand. The moisture hits my lungs as I breathe in the air. The salt water is stinging my wounds,…

Dear Avie, I’m not sure how to move on from all of this. I need you to help guide me. Come back to being by my side. You were always here by my side. You’re a part of me. The best piece of the pie. The piece that I will never again be able to taste. I bite down on a much bitter taste now. Something that I don’t always recognize. Your name is instilled…

Dear Avie, I’m up on the deck soaking in the sun’s rays while I listen to the ocean sway. Cars are driving by the bay. The sand and salt are not far away. I’ve been trying to replay our days we had spent together. Wishing that you could come back to me. I know that’s only attainable in my dreams. I wish that I could have kept you in my arms forever. I won’t ever…