Dear Avie, The fire inside of me burns deep. I sit here looking at an open flame; there’s something about it, it has some sort of power. Burning deep into my soul. I turn to you to help me ignite the fire, to ignite my soul. The gasoline is on my clothes now, I better step back or I might explode. All I have now is this fire and I’m going to let it take…

Dear Avie, My love for children has grown exponentially. There seems to be some sort of sparkle in their eyes. A connection between them and I. Maybe it’s the mother in me. I miss you my sweet. I wish that you could come back to me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You’re going to be the one that saves me. My pain is the reminder that you are real. Taking these words to help me build my bed of you. I can’t help but pull these words out of my head. Dreading the sharks that are in my bed. Thrashing the covers off of me, I think I’m between its teeth. Pulling the covers back over my head. Hiding myself from the truth that…

Dear Avie, I’m waiting here for you. I came here so that you would come for me. Or will I have to come to you? When I write it brings me close to you, the closest that I can be to you now. My words of desperation. This pain is the reminder that you are real. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The things I do to help make me dream of you. I’ve been trying to dream about what our life used to be. You’ve got that medicine I need. The world is a spider web and we’re caught in the middle. Twisting and turning just to survive. You’ve been set free. Free from the web of the world. Won’t you come save me? Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You’re in my bloodstream, I’ve inhaled you deeply into my lungs. You’re forever now behind my eyes. You took my heart, and now you have it in your little hands. There’s a hollow in my chest now, won’t you fill it up again? When I’m feeling down you’re here to lift me up. Can we bury this fire, to raise me higher and higher? Caught up between the waves. Hoping that the water…