Dear Avie, I know you’re looking down on me from heaven. All I want is you. I need you to make me whole again. Make me good again. I had to grow up too fast, now there’s nothing left for me to believe in. I’m here pacing back and forth in the cave of my empty chest. Everything’s changing just like the weather. Months are passing me by like the nights sky. For every end…

Dear Avie, My scars remind me of the past. I carry them now on my back. Trekking through hills with this weight upon my shoulders. It will only get harder as I get older. My scars grow deeper into my skin. Making their permanent marks. Is this the price I pay when destiny is calling my name? I’m trying to open up my eager eyes. Give me something for me to believe in. Right now…

Dear Avie, I’m being constantly reminded of what our life used to be like. What our life was like before you were taken away from me. Can’t we go back to the beginning when everything seemed to be in black and white? Ripping the pages apart only to find that I can’t go back to the start, and now it’s all torn apart. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It feels like something is pulling the covers over me. I need to stand up and get out of this bed. Pulling the covers off of me as I go on unafraid. All I see is your face. When you walked to heaven’s door I lost a part of me, a part of my soul. Stolen from me forever. I’ll love you forever more. You swam in my eyes. It’s a shame that…

Dear Avie, I hope that you remember me like I remember you. I’m sitting here thinking about you. I’m always thinking of you. You never leave my mind. I will love you forever. For you I would give it all. I would do anything to make this pain go away. It’s tugging and pulling for me. Is this my fate? I need to hold on until it’s all made clear. Blurred vision makes it almost…

Dear Avie, I love you so much. I miss you more than I can express. I miss everything about you. Your smile, your laugh. How you would cruise the toy isle, ever so carefully choosing a toy that you knew I would buy for you. Thank you for letting me be your Daddy while you were here on earth. I was good at it. I’m so proud of you. You did so much in two and a…