Dear Avie, Your name is running off the tip of my pen. The most beautiful name. Your name will forever be instilled in my mind. Your love allows me to walk through the water. The water that floods my life. Where would I be without you anchoring me? You’re anchoring my hope and my heart. In these waves of change I’m finding direction. Positivity can be contagious. Come a little closer. You just might begin…

Dear Avie, I knew from the beginning that I loved you. There’s something about the connection that we have. Something that only a mother could feel for her child. I could never be able to fully explain that feeling to another. Sometimes I wish that I could go back to being pregnant with you. If only I could go back to when everything seemed more simple and true. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Should I let the sun’s flares devour me? Setting me free. Throwing the ashes to the breeze and into the sea. Please help carry me. Let the heat of the sun melt the winter away. Unthawing my heart. Getting rid of the gray. Bringing me back from death. Breathe life back into me. Xoxo- Mommy

  Dear Avie, You’re somewhere and I’m nowhere. I call out your name, but you’re not there. I should’ve never had to tell you goodbye. I just want to hold you one more time. The things that I had to leave behind. I don’t want to lose sight. Using all of this as a warning sign. I need to get my life back in line. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You and I are meant to be. I know you can hear me. My future without you here will be empty. What’s a future if it’s not with you? It’s just me now. I have nothing left to lose. I used to be so full of you. The hunger strikes back. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, My life is incomplete. I’m deprived of you. The sweetness of life is beginning to fade away. My sugar high is coming down. The hunger is more profound. The venom of your love has poisoned me. The tears flowing down my face are filled with pain. Eternal shock is setting in. Xoxo- Mommy