Dear Avie, I’m waiting and writing in reflection. In prison inside of my mind. Suddenly you seem so far. Things happen but I don’t know why. I’ll be waiting here for you my sweet. Hiding behind this empty smile of mine. Waiting for you to be back by my side. Can you hear me calling for you? Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I will wait for you, or will I have to come to you? Will this pain ever end? My love is burning to find you. Crashing down into the ocean. Waiting for you while I ache and pray. Hoping to see your face again. The flames of love. The sparkling ambers floating above. Bring me up to you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’m still searching this ocean for you. Wading through the water. I was once warm with you right by my side. The warmth has now turned to cold. Help me from completely going under. Save me from being taken away by the waves. I’m still hoping to find direction. Please come save me from this place. Xoxo- Mommy

 Dear Avie, Your voltage is running through my veins. It’s traveling through me on its course. Making my amplitude a form of communication to you. Hoping to find you. Like a radio that’s searching for its tune. Trying hard not to lose the signal. The signal that brings me back to you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I need something to put all of this weight on. It’s all beginning to pull me under. The weight needs to be lifted so that I can go on swimming again. I thought we would be together forever. We won’t ever be able to get back the time that was stolen from us. Time can never be replaced. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I don’t know if I could ever love another more than I love you. You’re a girl of a different kind. You have the love that’s so soft and sweet. Your voltage is stunning. I’m grabbing at all of my prayers. Hoping that you’ll remember me. My temporary escape is shielding me from the absence of you. How can I go on living without you? Wishing for you to take me there. Xoxo-…