Dear Avie, I’m taking what I can from the fruit of this tree. Scared that I won’t find any food left to eat. I will never be satisfied from the fruit that it bears. I’ve already had a taste of the sweetest thing. The sweetest of fruits that I will never again be able to taste. I will now forever be deprived. Deprived of you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I would do anything to make you stay. I would go in your place. This life offers no guarantee. The guilt will never leave me. It will never subside just like the rising tide. Now I’m standing here in the darkness. Crying out to the night. As the nights sky slowly starts to unveil the beauty of the darkness. Bringing back the light. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I wish that we could start over. Making everything brand new. Bringing me back to you. When life seemed so simple and true. When life itself felt brand new. Throwing away the rough draft and creating the new. There are so many things that I still need to do. I’m all alone here without you my sweet. Mommy misses you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The waves of life are flowing in towards me. I’ve got to get my footing right or else the waves will take me down. Sometimes I want them to take me down. Taking me away. Bringing me back to you. Back to where you are now. I have to be careful not to allow the darkness to completely take over. I can’t hit the ground. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Just when I feel as though I’m too weak to continue, you pour down your love from up above. Lifting me up again. Raising my head up from looking down below. As you whisper into my ear, it’s all beginning to become clear. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I need something to believe in. I’m stuck here playing pretend. Trying to find what’s in between life and death. Hoping to love again. I’m in need of something to numb the pain. I’m counting up all of my mistakes. I know you’ll keep my secrets safe. Promise me that I’ll be able to swim up to the sky. Give me wings to help me fly. Xoxo- Mommy