Dear Avie, I’m trying hard to get that feeling back. The feeling that you gave me when you hugged me. I won’t ever be able to feel the way you made me feel inside. The comfort you gave me with just one hug. Your hugs pushed away all of my pain. You brought me in. You gave me something to believe in. Xoxo- Mommy
Dear Avie, The fire flows through me. I will let it burn. The flames consume me as I walk across the hot stones. Searching for water to cool me. The saltwater will heal me. I will keep swimming through the pounding waves. Leaving something behind in my wake. Xoxo- Mommy
Dear Avie, You are behind these eyes of mine. I can see you when the light is just right. Forever you will rise like the sunshine. You have been instilled in my mind. You are always inside. I will wait and wish to see you one last time. This distance between us needs to be filled. Come back to me. We didn’t know this was going to happen to us. All of the pain. Sometimes…
Dear Avie, The light doesn’t go away during the summer days in Alaska. The summer will soon fade away. Winter is irrevocable. The sun will disappear. Light turns into darkness. The cold clouds steal the light away as the sky falls down. My lungs will soon be filled up again with the coldest colors of gray. Xoxo- Mommy
Dear Avie, You’ve brought out the light in me. Not everything is dark. The light is growing within me. My fire is built up even higher. The flames burn hot upon my skin. The ambers trickle off into the dark. You are here with me. You are the spark. You have ignited my fire my sweet. You are bringing me out of the darkness. Soon I will be able to see. Xoxo- Mommy
Dear Avie, Most people are chasing after life while I’m chasing after your love. I refuse to hold back any longer. Sometimes the bitterness wants to shine through. The bitter taste of what happened still lingers upon my lips. We say this life is beautiful but do we really have a clue? Life is beautiful but with beauty there is also pain. With life there is also death. Sometimes I just want to run away.…