Dear Avie, I want to see your sweet face. The things I would do to feel your warm embrace. I’m starting to feel like I can finally face the day. If only I could choose what fades and what stays the same. Come set me free from the pain. How will I know where to go from here if you’re not here to guide me? I’m waking up without you. I wish I could go…

Dear Avie, With my tears I can wash away the smog. Crying helps clear my eyes. Nothing will ever feel as good as it used to when you were here. Many oceans separate us now. Why did everything have to be taken away? My life is in disarray. You’ve been saved my sweet. I want to be saved from all the unclean. I’m caught in between. Life and death overtakes me. I need to breathe…

Dear Avie, I wish I could kneel down in the sand with you. We would be holding hands as we sift through the sand. How can I exist without you? I will continue searching for you. Make me whole again. All I want to do is play in the sand with you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I was only given two and a half years with you. That’s only 906 days. Those days flew past me. Time with you got swept up by the wave. Stealing you away from me. I wish to be given that time back. What is this life now that I live without you? It’s almost impossible to keep on living when I’m being deprived of you. Your baby skin so soft and sweet. Those…

Dear Avie, The fog has settled, but things are still unclear. Sometimes I don’t recognize myself in the mirror. Does anything last forever? Even reflections can change. I may look put together from the outside, but how I feel on the inside I can’t explain. It’s hard to breathe without you here with me. Looking from the outside in. Searching the sea for you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I miss seeing your sweet face. I’ve been thinking about the feeling you gave me when I was in your presence. You made me feel amazing. You made me feel unstoppable. I’m empowered. I have so much to be grateful for. You have given me enough love to spread. The love I have to give back is infinite. Why couldn’t I have been taken away instead? I’m waiting to become whole again. Xoxo-…