Dear Avie, I wake up to kiss you but you are not there. I will continue searching for you. We belong together. I will continue searching even though I know that I won’t be able to find heaven here on earth. I won’t ever be able to find you here. Maybe I will just have to come to you. What can I do when the best part of me will always be you? Xoxo –…

Dear Avie, Mommy misses you so much. I thank my lucky stars for you. I am grateful that I had you next to me. I thought the better days were over and gone forever. I know now that it is up to me to make it all better. I will make sure my better days last forever. You are the only forever I will ever have. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It’s getting harder for me to live my life without you. I need to break free from the misery. I don’t want to feel like everything is out to get me. Can anybody help me? It’s all up to me. I need to set myself free. I want to let it all out. Nothing can stop me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Death does something to you. It forever changes you. I am not sure of who I have become. I am trying to speak loudly with my words. You are the one who made me feel like I was enough. You made me feel like I had it all. Now my dreams are all falling apart. Everything I know will go away in the end. Help put me back together again. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Help me dry my tears. I only weep for you. Tears run down my face. They rest upon my lips. I lick the saltiness. It is all that I can taste. The bitter taste. I wish I could turn my tears into tears of happiness. I have tears of pain. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It’s getting harder and harder for me to stay strong. I must keep holding on. I am looking for a way back in. Please keep holding me. I am becoming a bit unsteady. Don’t wake me now. I am finally sleeping. Xoxo- Mommy