Dear Avie, Yesterday I felt like fleeing. My anxiety took control over me. My tears left a flood behind me. Will my life get any better, or will it stay the same? I think about you every single day. I need to be rescued. I can’t waste any more time. I will hold onto you for the rest of my life. I will keep you in my heart forever. I don’t ever want to say…

Dear Avie, I cry out to you. Please help deliver me from this snare. Come and tie your rope around me. Pull me back up from underneath the misery. How much longer will I have to climb this unforgiving mountain? I won’t let fear take control over me. Make me stronger. Help me stand tall. My vision has become blurry. It is getting harder to breathe. I am fighting for my life. Give me the…

Dear Avie, You have been on my mind. I can’t talk when I am all choked up. I will write to you instead. Writing has become a voice for my head. From my heart. Into the sea. The deep sea of my life. Everything I have means nothing to me. I need you by my side. You are the only one who can cure me. Confessing through my lips. Using these words. Tears dripping down…

Dear Avie, The birds are chirping outside my window. I stepped out to listen to their tune. The wind is blowing. I try and shy away from the wind. I can’t hide from the bitter chill of the cold. I need to face it. I need to stay strong. Will I find warmth after the wind is gone? I am able to see through your eyes. I want to be curious. Childlike. I have the…

Dear Avie, I went to Church. What a loving place. Filled with warmth. Everyone there would save us all. The words of wisdom are written all over the walls. Your presence is all around. Put your hand on me. Show me the way. Guide me. I am in need of your strength. I need your saving grace. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Without you here I am falling apart. I need you. I am kneeling in supplication. I am going through a transfiguration. The rocks underneath the snow are beginning to show. They too are rising up from somewhere down below. I am always searching for you my angel. I wish I could wake with you by my side. I want to wake up to a golden sky. A lioness yearning for her cub. Life…