Dear Avie, I have a constant stinging of pain in my heart. I need to fill up my empty cup. My half empty soul. The trauma I have endured can’t be erased from my mind. I don’t know how to treat my wounds. I am still trying to heal from the pain of yesterday. The scabs keep getting scratched off. Unable to completely heal. This will leave a scar. I don’t want to die. Save…

Dear Avie, You are the only one who can help me divide the light from the darkness. I have many miles ahead of me. Walk with me. Into the sea so that I can become clean. Don’t let my memories run away from me. I have to let it all out. I have to write it down. Forever here they will stay. I will keep swimming until I pass the ocean. I need to find…

Dear Avie, I am trying to clean the dirt off my skin. Stripping away the filth from underneath my nails. Digging my way out. Stretching my arms out to you with my bare hands. I am falling apart without you. Spread thin. Loving you comes easy. Living without you seems impossible. A pit in my heart grows deeper with each passing day. I want to learn how to live in the now. I need to…

Dear Avie, I lost you a year ago today. I remember sitting beside you in the hospital bed during the last few days of your precious life. I have never cried so much. I was drained of my own life that day. My soul shriveled up. I wish it was all a dream. I wish you were here with me. I am starting to run out of pictures of you. I have even lost you…

Dear Avie, My memories have already started to fade away. The distance between us is growing bigger and bigger. Your journal called out to me. It was calling my name. Time is slipping away. I would do anything to make you real again. My life will never be the same. It will never be as it once was. I don’t think I can take this pain forever. I hope the water will wash it all…

Dear Avie, I am losing focus. I have lost myself. I was going so strong. I can feel the weight upon my shoulders. More weight has been added to the top. Will you help me rise? I do not want to fall. I have fallen so many times. I am not sure if I will be able to get back up again. Please continue to answer me when I call. The deep sea will eventually…