Dear Avie, The sun fades away. The sea’s glimmering waves are above me. Taking over me. Swallowing me whole. Pulling me under then letting me go. I have to swim through the distractions. Many creatures will appear along the way. Will I reach the surface? Or will I have to stay? I don’t know which way to go. My breath is going to run out. Left or right? Up above? Down below? Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I took photographs of a birthday party. Children were running around everywhere. Nothing but happy smiles and giggles surrounded me. The innocence that proclaims them. I miss chasing you around. Your pitter patter that once filled this house. You would use your walker for a swift getaway. Looking over your shoulder at me as I followed closely behind you. You were beyond your years. You were beyond mine. People aspire to be like…

Dear Avie, I wish we could sit and watch the sun rise from behind the snow filled sky. I wish I could be with you now. Did I have to get broken in order to find out who I really am? Broken in order to be saved. I don’t want to demoralize myself. I need your strength. I know you will save me. No one else understands. Come a little closer. Do you see? The…

Dear Avie, I am trying to earn my way towards you. First I have to get rid of the things that weigh me down. The anchor needs to be lifted above the ground. I am the builder of my ship but I do not have control over the sea. Where you are is where I strive to be. Time can’t save today. For time only takes it all away. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Without your bright light of a smile, my world seems so dim. Dark. I am unable to see. Searching through the darkness. My hands reach in front of me. Searching through the darkness blindly. A bright light glows in the distance. I step closer. My eyes have to adjust. Looking through the flames. Your light shines through the darkest of my days. Bringing me back to life. Lighting my way. No longer blind.…