Dear Avie, I found myself staring at a little family. A Mommy and Daddy holding their baby sat across the room. I watched as he held his sweet baby close. He gently passed the baby over to the Mother. She kissed the top of the babe’s head. Holding her closely. She quickly fell asleep in her Momma’s arms. Observing the love. The unbreakable love. Fascinating. I started crying. I had to look away. My tears…

Dear Avie, I went on a walk almost every single day this summer. I spent time listening to the birds. Without you. I miss you my sweet. I feel weak. Alone. Unsustainable. I hope my mind will eventually come back to me. Take away all of this misery. Break apart the grief. Show me. Help me find my way. Something is out there waiting for me. Are the Angels calling for me? Tightening the rope.…

Dear Avie, I love you my sweet. I miss you. I wish you could be here with me. I want to feel you. The sweet touch of your hands. Snug in my bosom. Grabbing for my hair while I feed you. Your fingers exploring my mouth. My sweet memories of you. They provide me with a wealthy soul. A happy heart. To love and to hold. I miss you. Love, Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The flowers that once surrounded me are wilting away. They have been pulled from their roots. Left only to live off the water. The water only gives them support. It can’t sustain. Depleted of their much needed nutrients. Everything is always fading. Nothing stays. In the end everything eventually wilts away. Nothing lasts forever they say. Only the light can help us to live another day. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It is May 29th, 2017. Today marks 7 months since you have been gone. It doesn’t seem like it has been that long. It feels like it all happened yesterday. You were much older than 2. I tore a piece of myself and I laid it onto you. The many lives that I have lived. An old spirit. Just like you. Our souls became one. You gave me the best piece of you.…