Dear Avie,
I feel like I might be out of my mind.
I shouldn’t be ashamed to say it.
I’m trying to find myself again.
Maybe this is who I’m supposed to be.
I hope the fear will lose it’s power over me.
I have to keep going.
Wishing you were here with me.
I want to feel you like I did before you were taken away from me.
I want to be able to hold your hand again.
I need you next to me.
Dancing while I imagine you dancing with me.
You are smiling and laughing.
I’m holding onto your hand.
Looking down at you while you are looking up at me.
Reaching out for you as you reach up for me.
Xoxo- Mommy
