Dear Avie,
I am in need of a break between death and being alive.
I need wakefulness in order to survive.
Did I need to lose myself in order to find out who I really am?
Is this all in my head?
The pain stays it doesn’t just pass.
Ashes are falling down all around me.
The fire is burning hot.
I will not take my eyes away from your flame.
Climbing while trying to reach.
You gave me your all, you gave me everything.
I can’t fall.
I am beneath the clouds that you sit high upon.
Was there something that I could have done to make you stay?
I need a resolution to all of this heartache.
Wishing that time could stand still.
Xoxo- Mommy
