Dear Avie,
I feel as though today is going to be one of those days. One of those days when I’m barely able to make it through the day. I don’t even want to get out of this bed. Hoping that my feet won’t fail me now.
You’re not here anymore, you were and now you aren’t. You were taken away from us, ripped away from my arms. In a blink of an eye you disappeared. I’ve been ripped open, these unhealed wounds are beginning to bleed again.
My sweet angel, I know that you are flying high. You’re dancing and singing, while looking down on us from heaven.
I feel so lost without you here with me. You gave me everything that I had ever wanted. Now I don’t want anything at all but you. If only I could have you now. There isn’t anything that I wouldn’t do for you. It’s killing me to know that I can’t have you.
Never do we really know what we have until we’ve lost it.
All that I can give you now are these words.
I miss kissing those chunky cheeks of yours. Your delicate skin, your smell of sweet innocence.
You’re just so perfect.
Mommy loves you
Xoxo-Mommy
