Dear Avie,
I find myself wondering how much time I have left.
I often wonder when my day will come.
Will I see you again someday?
I am not sure if I will make it up to where you are.
I am not sure of anything anymore.
Mommy needs comfort to surround me.
I can’t take any more pain.
I am in need of a place where the pain will be washed away.
Gone forever.
I want to continue living with no regrets.
I don’t want to live in the past.
I don’t want to look too far into the future.
I need to live in the now.
Everything is out of my control.
Pour down your love from above.
Shower me with your strength and perseverance.
Help me to live the life that I am supposed to be living.
Take my hand.
I don’t want this to be the end.
Let’s make this the beginning.
Xoxo- Mommy
