Dear Avie
The thought of wanting another baby came over me.
The urge of motherhood seldom shocks through my body.
My empty belly.
The void that now fills my arms is taking over my entire body.
The body that once carried you.
Maybe if I had another baby you would be back in my arms again.
Maybe this time things would be different.
Maybe they wouldn’t be.
My troubles have doubled.
Pain staking.
The trauma still haunts me.
I don’t know if I will ever have another baby.
No one could ever replace you.
It scares the hell out of me.
I miss you.
Please make me stronger so that I can continue to stand.
I need you.
Fill up my empty hands.
Fill up my soul.
My heart.
Xoxo- Mommy
