Dear Avie,
As I look through your pictures they help me remember you.
Diving into my memories that I wouldn’t have otherwise, if it wasn’t for a picture.
My mind is fading away with time
A picture brings me back to you.
My camera is always in my hand.
All I want to do is take pictures so that I will remember.
I need to be able to remember all that I can.
Someday you will understand.
I am transitioning through all of this.
Trying to express myself.
My life will never be the same.
You are untouchable now.
My addiction will never be satisfied.
I have been left high and dry.
A stranger in my own skin.
Digging my nails in.
Scratching at the surface trying to get in, or am I trying to get out?
I am not sure what is up and what is down.
I need to survive this.
Wake me up from my slumber.
Shine a light on all of this.
Xoxo- Mommy
