Dear Avie, I drove to the Lake today. I put my toes in the water. It was beautiful. Relaxing. Sparkling. The reflection. Bouncing back at me. Calming. Shimmering. Welcoming. Life. Timing is everything. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’m in between the sheets that used to be filled with you. I can’t sleep. My broken reality. Tears fill up the room. Drowning. Bitter sweet. The pain grows slowly. I woke up to a different life. I’m losing so much time. Heal me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Me, You’ve been brought back to life. Resuscitated. Refueled. Eager to speak. Soul searching. Ready to tell a story. Her story. Unique. All the pain. Trauma. A second chance at life. Take it. You will be cleansed of the pain. No more sadness. No more shame. Stay true to who you are. You have a gift. Keep reaching for the moon. You’ve got this. Xoxo -Me

Dear Avie, Mommy’s wind chime is chiming away. Singing a tune just for you. Calming. Soothing. Mommy loves you. I miss you. Sweeping up the pieces of me. The pieces of yesterday. Putting myself back together again. Bring me back to life. Come back to me. Sparking the fire inside. Learning to love again. Holding onto an aching soul. The struggle remains. Losing all control. Look inside these eyes of mine. Look closely into my…

Dear Me, Remember who you are. Promise me. Know that you can do anything. Be who you want to be. Becoming. You have your own pair of wings. Set yourself free. No more living on borrowed wings. Saved by her. She helped you see. She saved you. She saved me. Life. Pain. Memories. Xoxo- Me

Dear Me, You’ve been left with so many questions. Why did this happen? You need to know. The worst thing happened to you. Grief. Damaging. Help me grow my own pair of wings. I want to be free from the misery. Life has no guarantees. Please help me. Xoxo- Me

Dear Me, She’s put her mark on you Nothing can separate you from her. Your love. Eternity. Your life has been full of happiness as well as pain. Sadness. Soul searching. Growing. You see things differently. Don’t live in fear. Just be yourself. Always changing. I guess this is what it’s like to grow up. Don’t ever forget what you’ve gone through. Expand gratitude. Enjoy your life. Remember positivity is contagious. You will make it…

Dear Avie, Mourning abides forever. Like a mountain. It can’t be removed. The flood water is raging. It wants to take me down. Rushing over the top of me. Swallowing me whole. I need to break through. Deaths snare. I will escape it somehow. Cutting through the cords of death. Coming up from the depths. Pulling myself back up. Crying out to you. Fruit of my womb. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Pictures mean so much more to me. They take me back to a deeper memory. Pictures bring me back in time to when my heart was full. I have to continue living. Learning to live without you. You were sent here for a reason. Purposely delivered to me. Forever by my side. Touching other people’s lives. Teach me how to be like you. Xoxo- Mommy