Dear Me, The blade is trying to reach your soul. Ripping apart your heart. The impact of death. Consuming you. Death affects you. The intense pain. Take away the veil that covers your mind. Look deeper within yourself. Open up your heart. I know it’s a vulnerable part. Your heart controls everything. Without it you wouldn’t be breathing. Your heart will keep beating. Faith will take away the pain. Xoxo- Me

Dear Me, You hate endings. The aching. There were many things left undone. Delicate things. Remember the beauty of this life. Forget about the pain. The suffering. Wishing you could go back to before your heart was sore. The pain. The suffering. You are something much more than you were before. Don’t let anything bring you down. Don’t stop now Keep growing. Xoxo- Me

Dear Me, Maybe I had to get broken in order to be healed. On a pottery wheel. Taking on a new shape. Sculpted into a better person. A second chance. Positivity releases you. You won’t ever be the same. Gratitude won’t allow shame. The laws of motion are pushing you. You’re being shaped by pain. Xoxo- Me

Dear Avie, Closing my eyes. Wishing to have sweet dreams of you. No one will ever know what I’ve been through. Does anything last forever? My life used to be filled with you. There’s too much pain. Sadness. Always searching. Feed my soul. Permeating. Make me feel it from within. Our love will set me free. Bring me back to dreaming. Xoxo-Mommy

Dear Avie, The sun is trying to hide behind the clouds. Or is it the other way around? Maybe the clouds are trying to cover up the sun. Pacing around. Trying to smell your smell. Searching through the house. Stepping over the threshold. Slowly entering your room. Unrecognizable. The smell. Your room is full. It’s also very empty. Closing my eyes to see you. I could stand here all day. Waiting for you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Me, I wrapped my hands around your neck. Your heart was beating out of your sunken chest. You want to see her one last time. You need to breathe if you want to survive. Holding your neck a little tighter before letting go. Breathe. Don’t try to escape life. Xoxo- Me

Dear Me, Crying in the middle of the night. The fog lifts a little when you cry. You hardly dream. You can’t see clearly. Is this the end? The end of you? The end of me? Remember to breathe. Sadness. Consuming. Don’t let the light pass you by. Run. Your feet won’t fail you. The road is long. You will get there. You are not beyond repair. There’s still time. Open up your heart. Your…

Dear God, Resting on my knees. Begging you. Show me the way. Please. I need you. Yearning to be closer to you. Bring me in. Set me free. Deliver me. Lift the pain. Heal the people around me. They need you. Take away the smog. Give us a clear view. Xoxo- Me

Dear Avie, I’m sitting outside. The air is perfectly set. The sun is shining. Glistening. Moments like these make me yearn for you. Even more so than I already do. Sometimes I think you are inside. Napping. Soon you’ll wake. I’m listening for your cry. My ears search for your perfect voice. Aching for you. Come sit next to me. Take away my fears. Tell me what is it that I need to do. I…

Dear Me, You know what it’s like to love. You’ve felt true love. The Sacrifice. Love conquers everything. You love her more than anything. Keep living. Believe me. You’re not lost. Don’t give up on me. I won’t give up on you. You can be anything you set your mind to. Keep loving me. I will keep loving you. Remember that when you don’t know what to do. Xoxo- Me