Dear Avie,
No longer are you here with us.
Somehow we are still able to live, I don’t know how but we are.
Time seems to be so much more delicate now, It’s going past us even faster.
The sadness of it all takes up my whole being.
I feel as though I might just die.
Struggling through each day.
I dreamt of you last night. For the first time since your death I got the chance to be able to see your face again. When I woke I made myself fall back into a slumber so that I could see you once more. This time you weren’t there. I woke up disappointed but I was also grateful that I got the chance to see you, even if it’s just in my dreams now.
I wish I could hold your little hands.
To be able to feel your weight on my arms as you used me as your crutch. My hands helping you to be able to walk.
As I begin to close my eyes, I can feel you hug me. Your sweet arms wrapped around me tightly. Around my neck you would squeeze.
We’re sleeping tightly snugged together now.
I miss your embrace, I miss your face.
Xoxo- Mommy
