Dear Avie, I woke up and you’re gone. I reached for your blanket. Holding it close to my chest. I miss you when you’re gone. Swinging my feet off the bed. Resting them on the cold hard floor. The quietness of this house. Drowning everything else out. My words are flowing from deep down inside. This pen and paper allows me to speak my mind. Writing down how I feel inside. With this pen and…

Dear Avie, I’m tuning into your station. Turning the dial. Searching through stations. Hoping to find the outpour of your broadcast. Tuning my ears. Seeking you. I’m trying hard not to lose your signal. It’s what brings me back to you. The renewing of my soul. Tuning into the love that I have for you. My eyes will never be full from riches. My eyes are already full of you. I’m in awe of you.…

Dear Avie, Your pure spirit is making me whole again. You’re healing my frail soul. I’m the lost sheep that’s trying to return to my flock. You’re my northern star. The lights shine bright for you. Draw near to me and set me free. Bring me closer to you. Xoxo- Mommy  

Dear Avie, I won’t continue to go on in fear. I will go on believing. Your devoted love endures forever. This alone gives me great strength. You will live on through me forever. You’re spreading your love amongst the water. Rescuing me from my foes. Make me your vessel. I want to walk in your footsteps my sweet. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Your love is better than any wine. Your oils of fragrance smells so sweet. You’re pouring out of the bottle, and onto my skin. It’s all beginning to sink in. The snakes are wrapping themselves around my neck. It’s hard for me to breath. I’m waiting for them to release their grip. Why won’t they let go of me? If the snakes bite before they’re charmed, there’s no advantage to their charmer.…

Dear Avie, In everything there is a reason. There is a time to be born as well as a time to die. A time to heal brings a time to break down. A time to weep as well as a time to laugh. If I fall down I know you’ll be there to lift me back up. Time is what’s between us now. I’ll be here fixing my broken wings. When my time comes, I’ll…

Dear Avie, I won’t ever be alone again. Because of you I will never be deserted. The science of things divine. Placing a guard over my mouth. Keeping watch over the door of my lips. When my soul starts to become faint you’ll be here for me. You won’t let my heart turn black. You’ll show me the way. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The sky is blue. The clouds are grey. Wishing that I could see your face. One more time is all that I need. Wishing and waiting for you to come back to me. I woke up today with empty hands. My weeping tears fall down my face. Today is supposed to be mommy’s special day. All I can think about is you, my sweet. I need you next to me. Come rest your…

Dear Avie, Water and love can penetrate anything. Can water wash away my pain? Water and love pierces through me. Will you bring me rain to help wash away my pain? Penetrating my soul. Bringing back life. Newly wet soul for my seeds to grow. You’re not below, you’re up above. Bring me the water to wash this all away. A clean towel to dry my face. Opening up my hands. Uncovering my face. Your…

Dear Avie, There was a time when I was able to look into your eyes. Those days are gone now. Forever in my mind. Holding on tightly as I hold you in my envelope of love. Missing the way you feel wrapped up in my arms. My arms are now empty. I’ve been torn away from my one true love. Hold my hand as our never ending love weaves together. Xoxo- Mommy