Dear Avie, The dirt can’t hold me down. I won’t let it cover me. I will continue digging my way out. I can’t make sense of it all. My vision is blurry. Grab a shovel and help uncover me. Help dig me out. I am not looking for an exit. I am looking for a way in. I need to shed my skin. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, A wilderness surrounds me. A river runs through. Bring me back to life. I need to be rescued. Something was missing until you came into my life. You are my saving grace. I had a purpose. I had a place. No love will ever add up to the love that I have for you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Water flows through us all. The water is steady, fast, and powerful. I forgot how to swim. Bring me back up to the surface so that I can take a breath. I am afraid that I might drown. Give me strength to keep going. Help me survive this. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You are the melody in my words. The perfect rhyme. My perfect design. Can you hear me? I can hear you. I will break down the pieces of rock to form sand for you. I surrender. Stepping back and examining my life. You are what I need. I surrender myself to you. Awaken me. Help me listen. Please let me see. Set my sorrows free. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It’s cold here today. I can’t even sit outside. The cold makes me not want to do anything. I want to be close to the ocean’s tide. I want to hear the waves as they roll on by. I will take any kind of fresh open air. The warm sun on my face lifts my mood. The ocean heals my soul. The sand reminds me of you. I am in need of a…

Dear Avie, Everyone has a story, but not everyone can tell it. Not many can express the way they feel. We all have feelings. Bottled deep down, waiting to boil over, and wanting to come out. I don’t think that I can handle any more bad things happening to me. I have to set what I am thinking free or else it will all suffocate me. Life is full of sadness. Trials and tribulations of…

Dear Avie, What I thought I used to know has all been thrown out the window. The questions of who I am and who I used to be keeps chasing after me. I question myself daily. At times my reflection bounces back in the form of a stranger. An unrecognizable force keeps pushing and pulling me. I am on a never ending roller coaster ride. Rescue me from the misery. Help me get off of…

Dear Avie, Good morning my love. I hope you ate your breakfast this morning. Pancakes with a side of mandarin oranges. You love oranges. From the amount of oranges that you ate I am surprised that you didn’t turn into one. Mommy likes oranges too. You would always steal mine off of my plate. I miss my mornings with you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, There is a fire inside of my soul. A fire that can’t be contained or controlled. Nothing can separate me from your love. I sit here in bondage awaiting the day that I will be set free. Awaiting the day that you will be returned to me. Groaning for the release of all of this pain. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I went into my favorite store today. The antique store is a beautiful place. There are many trinkets and things. You have been in there a few times with me, my sweet. It is a very delicate place, filled with the old and the new things. Life’s little treasures. I stepped back to appreciate the old as well as the new. For the old creates the new. The past has a lot to…