Dear Avie, My sweet apple of my eye Avie Mae you have been on my mind today as always. Your presence is all around me. I feel as though you are what’s holding me together. You’re a huge part of me, you’ve made me into the person that I have now become. Please help me to help others who are also in need. Continue to guide my feet while pushing me in the right direction.…
Dear Avie, Among the many pictures that I have of you in my office, one in particular is standing out to me tonight. The picture is sitting here nicely framed upon my desk. I took this picture of you a week before you left us. You were on your iPad, or what you would call your hi-Pad. I remember that moment as if it happened yesterday. I was lying next to you and I looked…
Dear Avie, Its night time my sweet, and as usual I am lying here in bed. My mind begins to flood my brain with almost every single moment that I had spent with you. I think this is my minds way of trying not to forget you. I don’t want to ever forget you my sweet. For brief moments this pain and sadness sometimes gets swept under the rug, and happy thoughts and positivity takes…
Dear Avie, Christmas is just around the corner, but without you here I’m not sure what we’re going to do. You won’t be here with us for Christmas this year, you won’t be here with us at all. Your gifts will remain unopened. It’s soo unbelievable to me that you are really gone. You’re gone from my arms reach now. As I stare looking back at the thousands of pictures and videos of you. The…
Dear Avie, I had to go to the grocery store today. The grocery store trip wasn’t the same without you. The shopping cart was full but without you sitting in it, it was empty. We would always go to the store together just you and I. While at the store we would go check and see what new Disney movies would be finally coming out of their vault. I loved watching and sharing with you…
Dear Avie, I would sit in the tub while you were still in my womb. I’d sing to you while I rubbed my belly, easing my body’s achiness. I’ll just close my eyes for a minute as I go back to my memories of you playing in the bath tub. You love to take baths. We would gather up all of your bath toys and I would fill the bath with water. Without you having to ask…
Dear Avie, Today I was given a few gifts from a friend. I received a beautiful ring and a charm. The middle part of each piece of jewelry is made out of my breastmilk. These keepsakes will forever remind me of the milk that I produced to feed you. I breastfed you for two and a half years, and you were not acting like you were going to be weaning anytime soon. I now appreciate even…
Dear Avie, I’m lying here in bed, my thoughts of you are running through my head. Today went by just as fast as the last. You’re always on my mind. I keep going into my memory bank, reaching in for something to hold onto. I walked into your room today. The air smelt a little like you. You have tons of clothes that need to be tucked in. Books that need to be placed upon…
Dear Avie, You’ve helped me become a better person. I am filled with more love and compassion than ever before. Please send me strength and guidance for only you can help me now. Just a few days ago we received a letter in the mail. This letter contained information on the gift that you have given with organ donation. You went on to save six people with your gift of life. A couple of kids got…
Dear Avie, On Tuesdays you go horseback riding for physical therapy. You’ve been riding for a little over a year now. You started riding when you were just a year old. You were the youngest rider in the program. You love horses just like mommy. You’ve become a very strong rider. I was able to see the progression in your strength, and in your balance from day one of horse therapy. I’m not sure if you would have progressed this fast if it wasn’t for your many…