Dear Avie, Good Morning my sweet. I wish that you were with us last night. We went over to the neighbor’s house where we had a little bon fire going, we also let off some fireworks. You would’ve thought that the fireworks were out of this world. I had pictured you there with us last night. The noise from the fireworks would scare you a bit, but after the first few booms and bursts from…

Dear Avie, Mommy and Daddy miss you so very much. A piece of us is missing. How does someone go on when they lose a piece of themselves? The sweetness is trying to take over the bitter, but the bitter taste of it all continues to linger in my mouth. Daydreaming about you with my eyes open now. I can see you, you’re trying to stand up as you begin to start gliding your way…

Dear Avie, No longer are you here with us. Somehow we are still able to live, I don’t know how but we are. Time seems to be so much more delicate now, It’s going past us even faster. The sadness of it all takes up my whole being. I feel as though I might just die. Struggling through each day. I dreamt of you last night. For the first time since your death I got…

Dear Avie, You woke up every morning with a smile. After we were done having our morning cuddles you would start to inch yourself over to the other side of the bed where you could slide off, touching your feet onto the floor. You would either grab your walker or you would just crawl your way out to the living room. While heading down the hallway to the living room you would call out for…

Dear Avie, I walked into your room tonight. Pushing the door open slowly as I walked through. There was nothing but pure silence as I crossed over the threshold. Your cute braces with your matching pink sneakers are sitting upon your dresser. Your mobile was spinning ever so slightly around your empty crib. Everything is tucked away into their little spots, just as they were before you left us. I’m sitting here on your bedroom floor…

Dear Avie, I feel as though today is going to be one of those days. One of those days when I’m barely able to make it through the day. I don’t even want to get out of this bed. Hoping that my feet won’t fail me now. You’re not here anymore, you were and now you aren’t. You were taken away from us, ripped away from my arms. In a blink of an eye you…

Dear Avie, My days will never be the same without you here by my side. You’re what’s missing from my life now. My soul has been split into two, and you’re the bigger half of my soul. Now all that’s left to carry is this smaller piece of me. How will I obtain any kind of happiness now, when I have already received the most attainable thing? The love and the happiness that you brought me,…

Dear Avie, Merry Christmas my love. Today has flown by just like the last. I’ve been trying to visualize what Christmas would have been like for us this year. I can see you now, and you’re smiling from ear to ear. Your infectious giggles filling up this room. When you saw your gifts sitting under the Christmas tree you would reach for them, examining the boxes very carefully. Joy and happiness would be shining through…

Dear Avie, It’s Christmas Eve my sweet. Things have been a little difficult for us today. Life’s just not the same without you here. There are no lights that are as bright as you. Always you’ll be here by my side my sweet. You’re my heart, my soul, my melody. My tears from my eyes they weep. My heart ripped right out, the veins are constricting with nothing to bleed out. My wounds they need…

Dear Avie, As I lie here in our bed remembering the days when you used to sleep next to me. You would snuggle your way towards me. Your arms are wrapped around my neck, your cold toes resting on my side. We have spent many nights together cuddled up in this bed. I have spent many nights writing to you in this journal. Can you hear me? I want to be up there, singing and…