Dear Avie, I’m up on the deck soaking in the sun’s rays while I listen to the ocean sway. Cars are driving by the bay. The sand and salt are not far away. I’ve been trying to replay our days we had spent together. Wishing that you could come back to me. I know that’s only attainable in my dreams. I wish that I could have kept you in my arms forever. I won’t ever…

Dear Avie, What would happen if we loved ourselves as much as we love others? We are always complimenting other people. Always striving to have what others have. What would happen if we started complimenting, and loving ourselves more? If we loved ourselves we could heal ourselves. Don’t we all need healing? I know I do. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Won’t you come help open up my eyes? Please help me lift up these heavy eyelids, while I search for your light in the new day. Life is a beautiful gift that can be taken away in just a blink of an eye. I have to continue to try to live on without you. Letting regrets be a thing of the past while I continue to live in the now. Holding on to…

Dear Avie, Please continue to look down on Daddy and his parents, Grandma and Grandad. My parents Grammie and Poppa love you too. Continue to pour down your love for them from up above. Our family and friends, they love and miss you too. I know you’re putting your hands on all of us for healing. You can heal anyone with just one look. I know you healed me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’ve now grown accustomed to the bad things always trailing right behind the good. Waiting for its opportunity to present itself The good times we had were going so good. You were happy and healthy and ever so sweet. That was when the bad came in, sweeping you up and away from me. Away you are now forever from my arms reach. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Good morning my love. I’ll write to you at any time of the day. I’ll write to you when this pen and paper calls out my name. I know that you’re looking down on us from heaven. I wish that I could reach out and touch your little fingers with my hand. Your skin is so soft like the white sands. I woke up in the mornings to your sweet face. My days…

Dear Avie, I woke up to your journal calling my name. It calls out for me like I call out for you. It yearns for its pages to be written on. Yearning like I yearn for you. We can’t change what has happened in the past. We have to live in the now. Our choices will affect our future. We have to keep riding the wave of life that keeps pulling and pushing us. Treading…

Dear Avie, I want you by my side. You’re holding my writing arm now as we lie here, trying to fall asleep. You turn to me, giving me a big ‘ol kiss, and tell me you love me. A tear creeps down my cheek, a smile slowly comes to be. You’re free now, so free. Won’t you come back to me? Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I took many pictures today. The scenery here is out of this world. The sun is shining on my face. I pictured you here with me on the beach. You would be playing in the white as snow sand. Running your fingers gently through its coarse texture. You would have a mile long smile. My world is not the same without you. Without you by my side, I’m not sure what to do.…

Dear Avie, We sat outside tonight by the fire pit. The stars were out, and the fire was ablaze We looked up at the sky as the clouds parted ways. The man on the moon was clear as day. We sat there for a moment, taking in the night’s sky. Wishing you were here by our side. Xoxo- Mommy