Dear Avie, There was a time when I was able to look into your eyes. Those days are gone now. Forever in my mind. Holding on tightly as I hold you in my envelope of love. Missing the way you feel wrapped up in my arms. My arms are now empty. I’ve been torn away from my one true love. Hold my hand as our never ending love weaves together. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Even though you left the outside world you still remain in my inner world. These precious recollections that warm up my heart. The best of you will always remain with me. I won’t ever let you go. I will be lifted up by the comforter that’s filled with your sweet memories. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It’s hard for me to explain how I feel. Sometimes I don’t even know what’s going on through this mind of mine. When I write I’m myself. Jotting down how I feel inside. Trying to make sense of it all, but I just might lose my mind. These words are begging me to write them down. There’s nowhere that I can hide now. My wounds are being exposed. A bandage could help…

Dear Avie, I woke up and you’re not here. The smell of you is everywhere. I got out of bed to write to you. To be close to you. Everything comes back to you. The northern lights even sparkle for you. They’re dancing away my pain in the night’s sky. Xoxo- Mommy

  Dear Avie, The house is too quiet. The clicking of the clock is the only noise around. Time never stops it just keeps going. It’s going by even faster now since you’ve been gone. Passing me by. These days are not long My time here is short. I need you. I miss you my sweet. You’re in heaven waiting for me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’m lying in bed. Searching my memory bank for you. My thoughts in my head consume me. Peeling back the scabs. Exposing my wounds. Digging deep to find you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’m so full of love I can barely eat. I can’t swallow any of these words. This is real life not at all tampered with, not at all fake. I can’t leave the past behind me. I can’t walk away. Letting the cracks begin to show before I’m taken away by the waves. Pushed under from up above and beneath me. I can’t breathe. The wave breaks, and I have no control over when…

Dear Avie, I wish that you could come back to me. Come back and crawl into our bed. Our cuddles were endless. We would lay there and laugh and giggle in bed. We didn’t have to pull the covers over our heads. We had nothing to hide from. You hated the covers anyways, you always pulled them off. You never covered yourself. You were always giving it your all. You’re showing us all who we…

Dear Avie, Sometimes I think about the end. I’m somewhat fascinated by death. I know that if death comes for me I will be ready, willing and able. I know that you’ll be there waiting on the other side. You’re waiting for me like I’m waiting for you. When my time comes I’ll be right there by your side. You’ll never leave my side again. Forever we will be together again. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You’ve brought the brightest of lights to everyone’s life. Even though you’re gone your light carries on. You illuminate even the darkest of corners. I miss you my sweet. I can feel you next to me. You’re telling me that everything is fine. We will be ok, we will survive. Xoxo- Mommy