Dear Avie, I wish that I could go back to when you were here with me. I want to be able to rock you back to sleep one last time. Can I take a ride up to the sky to see your sweet face? Under the weight of it all I hope that my memories won’t be erased. Mommy needs you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I want to go back in time and say my last goodbyes. You were taken away too fast. I can barely remember the past. Why did we have to get broken apart? I wish we could go back to the start. I wanted you to stay. I’ll even go in your place. I’m still searching for the light. As I continue searching for your sweet face. The struggle is consuming me. Dear Avie…

Dear Avie, Is this the end of everything? Everything that I had once felt inside. I’m in need of hope. I don’t want to die. Is this the kind of life that I want to lead? Standing on my knees. It’s not that simple. It’s hard to explain. You went away. Now I’m living through the darkest of my days. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’ve been left here stomping through my identity. I’m trying to mold myself into who it is that you would want me to be. How I live will define me. What happened to all of my happiness? There’s too much sadness. My hands are covering my face. Raising the last flag that I will ever raise. My day will come it’s just a matter of time. I can’t wait to see your sweet…

Dear Avie, I’m mesmerized by your light. The light you continue to expose. No one compares to you. You can’t be replaced. You’re the other part of my soul. These words run through my veins. I hope that in the end we will be together again. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’m taking what I can from the fruit of this tree. Scared that I won’t find any food left to eat. I will never be satisfied from the fruit that it bears. I’ve already had a taste of the sweetest thing. The sweetest of fruits that I will never again be able to taste. I will now forever be deprived. Deprived of you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I would do anything to make you stay. I would go in your place. This life offers no guarantee. The guilt will never leave me. It will never subside just like the rising tide. Now I’m standing here in the darkness. Crying out to the night. As the nights sky slowly starts to unveil the beauty of the darkness. Bringing back the light. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I wish that we could start over. Making everything brand new. Bringing me back to you. When life seemed so simple and true. When life itself felt brand new. Throwing away the rough draft and creating the new. There are so many things that I still need to do. I’m all alone here without you my sweet. Mommy misses you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The waves of life are flowing in towards me. I’ve got to get my footing right or else the waves will take me down. Sometimes I want them to take me down. Taking me away. Bringing me back to you. Back to where you are now. I have to be careful not to allow the darkness to completely take over. I can’t hit the ground. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Just when I feel as though I’m too weak to continue, you pour down your love from up above. Lifting me up again. Raising my head up from looking down below. As you whisper into my ear, it’s all beginning to become clear. Xoxo- Mommy