Dear Avie, The light doesn’t go away during the summer days in Alaska. The summer will soon fade away. Winter is irrevocable. The sun will disappear. Light turns into darkness. The cold clouds steal the light away as the sky falls down. My lungs will soon be filled up again with the coldest colors of gray. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You’ve brought out the light in me. Not everything is dark. The light is growing within me. My fire is built up even higher. The flames burn hot upon my skin. The ambers trickle off into the dark. You are here with me. You are the spark. You have ignited my fire my sweet. You are bringing me out of the darkness. Soon I will be able to see. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Most people are chasing after life while I’m chasing after your love. I refuse to hold back any longer. Sometimes the bitterness wants to shine through. The bitter taste of what happened still lingers upon my lips. We say this life is beautiful but do we really have a clue? Life is beautiful but with beauty there is also pain. With life there is also death. Sometimes I just want to run away.…

Dear Avie, Writing to you fuels my soul. These words of heartache bring me closer to you. My letters bring relief during all of this pain. I won’t tuck away how I feel inside. I can’t hide the truth. I’ll be here waiting and writing to you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I hope that I can make it all the way up to you. Promise me that you’ll be there waiting for me. The sadness that I feel deep inside will always reside. My grieving thrives. I can’t hide the truth about how I feel inside. I hope you’ll remember me. I’m waiting for you. Will you be there waiting for me? Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I wake up every morning afraid that I’ll lose my ability to write to you. I pray that I can continue to talk to you with my paper and pen. I’ll continue to write to you until the end. This is your story. You’ll soon begin to see. I hope that it will make its way up to you my sweet. Whisper in my ear so that I can hear you. Please tell…

Dear Avie, You’re the biggest piece of me. You’re my heart and my soul. You’re my everything. You’ve been taken away from me. No longer at arm’s reach. I’ve lost a piece of me. My lungs have been stunned. I’m trying hard to breathe. The lights have become blinding; making it hard for me to see. This road is long and winding. Please continue to beat for me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Time disappears more quickly without you here. In these dark times only you could love me for me. When we had to say goodbye, I died a little inside. I think I’ve lost the light in my eyes. I’ll always be searching for you. Our summer days have passed us by. The winter will begin to settle in and take up more of our time. The cold air is filling up my…

Dear Avie, I’m trying hard not to get too close to the flame. The warmth that was here is slowly fading away. There’s a fire deep down inside of me. Desolation is settling in. Everything’s turning to ashes. It’s all slowly drifting away with the wind. I’ll never be able to erase all the things I’ve seen. All I have are bad dreams. Death devours me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You were a sweet vision in the morning while I laid there next to you. The light shined through the window onto your beautiful face. Beams of light were always shining down on you. You could light up any room. Now I’m having to wake up every morning without you. Xoxo- Mommy