Dear Avie, You’ve been gone from my arms for too long. Take me up to where you are. Up above the sky where you reside. Much higher now, you are. Heal me and take me. You and I could fly so high. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It feels so good to write to you. Writing gives me time to be alone with you. My words bring me closer to you. This is the closest that I can be to you now. I am healing myself with the words that I write. Please continue to give me strength. Mommy loves you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I am trying to live during these days without you. Constantly searching for a will and a way to survive. I want to stay safe from the pain of the truth. Clinging to the memories of you. I want to be taken away from all of this pain. Are you going to protect me from all of these things? Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I long for you every single day. You have given me a reason to live through all of this. Even though you’re gone, our bond still remains. Forever my bond will be with you. Everlasting and forever yours. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I’m trying to crawl back to the time before my heart broke. I want to go back to where my heart belongs. With you I felt so strong. Now I am struggling to keep my heart beating. I must continue living. I need to soothe my soul. Wishing that I could suspend some of my sorrow. I will keep my heart beating for you. I’m yearning for you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I will be waiting here for you. I’ll wait for your call. I know you will call out for me. I know you will. When you do I will run. I’ll come and I will run to you. When I get to you I will finally be able to see. This everlasting embrace will be filled with you again. I can’t wait to see your face. I want to fill my empty arms…

Dear Avie, Please come down and wash away all of Mommy’s pain. I feel so flawed when you’re not here next to me. You are perfection. I hope you can see. Your innocence is so sweet. You have given me something to believe in. You are who I want to be. My life has been cut up into a million different pieces. I’m down on my knees while I strive to pick up the pieces.…

Dear Avie, I’m trying hard to get that feeling back. The feeling that you gave me when you hugged me. I won’t ever be able to feel the way you made me feel inside. The comfort you gave me with just one hug. Your hugs pushed away all of my pain. You brought me in. You gave me something to believe in. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The fire flows through me. I will let it burn. The flames consume me as I walk across the hot stones. Searching for water to cool me. The saltwater will heal me. I will keep swimming through the pounding waves. Leaving something behind in my wake. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You are behind these eyes of mine. I can see you when the light is just right. Forever you will rise like the sunshine. You have been instilled in my mind. You are always inside. I will wait and wish to see you one last time. This distance between us needs to be filled. Come back to me. We didn’t know this was going to happen to us. All of the pain. Sometimes…