Dear Avie, I am waiting patiently for you. Do you hear my cries? Help pull me out of the mire. I am trying to set my feet onto a solid foundation. Preparing for what’s to come. Everything seems to be falling apart around me. In time I will see. When the world is on fire, no one can save me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I miss taking a bath with you. Our bubble bath time was the very best. The tub is no longer filled with bubbles. When I sit in our tub it’s empty and quiet. The first time I took a bath without you I cried. It felt so empty. I felt so alone. I couldn’t even pretend that you were in there with me, although I tried. Your presence is truly missed. I miss…

Dear Avie, When I write to you the bad things disappear. If I write enough will it keep me from losing my mind? I can’t lose my sight. I am begging and waiting for a sign. Nothing is as good as it used to be. I am running out of time. I have to find a new way to live. I have to stay alive. How can I keep on going when everything reminds me…

Dear Avie, I am having to cross over many bifurcated roads. My life has been split into different directions. I am not sure which way to go. I am falling straight into the unforgiving asphalt. Please lay me down softly as I fall. My life has a mind of it’s own. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The darkness plays tricks on me. It tries to settle itself down inside of me. It wants to take over what is left of me. All of this is enough to make me feel crazy. The silence is starting to haunt me. I want to close my eyes. I want to be with you. I need you next to me. I am still looking for you. I am looking as far as my…

Dear Avie, I can’t feel a thing. My limbs will eventually wake up from their deep sleep. They feel like pins and needles as they sting. The fog settles. I am unable to see. Misery creeps in. The enemy tries to squeeze it’s way through. Wherever there is light there is bound to be darkness. The darkness is tempting me. I will not let the darkness take me down. I have to keep my light…

Dear Avie, I peered out the window. A mother moose and her calf stood outside the window staring back at me. The calf stood closely by her mother’s side. They were both plucking away at the brush trying to find something delectable to eat. I stepped outside the front door with my camera in my hand. They moved swiftly and gracefully across the lawn. The snow was belly deep. The protective nature of the Momma…

Dear Avie, As I look through your pictures they help me remember you. Diving into my memories that I wouldn’t have otherwise, if it wasn’t for a picture. My mind is fading away with time A picture brings me back to you. My camera is always in my hand. All I want to do is take pictures so that I will remember. I need to be able to remember all that I can. Someday you…

Dear Avie, The distance between us is unbearable. I am clinging onto my memories of you. Will there ever be an end to all of my suffering? Wake me from the uncertainty. This must be what eternity feels like. I will be waiting for my heart’s completion. Please show me a sign. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, The light helps me see. No more darkened days ahead of me. I want to fall onto the light’s ways. Illuminate my path. No more darkened days at sea. I am willing and able to change. Wishing you were here with me. The deep blue sparkles in your eyes. Waves fade out into the distance. Drifting back to safer shores. Xoxo- Mommy