Dear Avie, I am not sure what I am supposed to do. I am completely lost without you. Why did everything have to come crashing down? The choppy sea that will never stay still. The waves are taking over me now. The water tosses up the mire and the muck. Blinding my view. Wiping the salt from my eyes. I will rise up like a lioness. You will help me rise. Making me a new.…

Dear Avie, The dirt can’t hold me down. I won’t let it cover me. I will continue digging my way out. I can’t make sense of it all. My vision is blurry. Grab a shovel and help uncover me. Help dig me out. I am not looking for an exit. I am looking for a way in. I need to shed my skin. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, A wilderness surrounds me. A river runs through. Bring me back to life. I need to be rescued. Something was missing until you came into my life. You are my saving grace. I had a purpose. I had a place. No love will ever add up to the love that I have for you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Water flows through us all. The water is steady, fast, and powerful. I forgot how to swim. Bring me back up to the surface so that I can take a breath. I am afraid that I might drown. Give me strength to keep going. Help me survive this. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, You are the melody in my words. The perfect rhyme. My perfect design. Can you hear me? I can hear you. I will break down the pieces of rock to form sand for you. I surrender. Stepping back and examining my life. You are what I need. I surrender myself to you. Awaken me. Help me listen. Please let me see. Set my sorrows free. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It’s cold here today. I can’t even sit outside. The cold makes me not want to do anything. I want to be close to the ocean’s tide. I want to hear the waves as they roll on by. I will take any kind of fresh open air. The warm sun on my face lifts my mood. The ocean heals my soul. The sand reminds me of you. I am in need of a…

Dear Avie, Everyone has a story, but not everyone can tell it. Not many can express the way they feel. We all have feelings. Bottled deep down, waiting to boil over, and wanting to come out. I don’t think that I can handle any more bad things happening to me. I have to set what I am thinking free or else it will all suffocate me. Life is full of sadness. Trials and tribulations of…

Dear Avie, What I thought I used to know has all been thrown out the window. The questions of who I am and who I used to be keeps chasing after me. I question myself daily. At times my reflection bounces back in the form of a stranger. An unrecognizable force keeps pushing and pulling me. I am on a never ending roller coaster ride. Rescue me from the misery. Help me get off of…

Dear Avie, Good morning my love. I hope you ate your breakfast this morning. Pancakes with a side of mandarin oranges. You love oranges. From the amount of oranges that you ate I am surprised that you didn’t turn into one. Mommy likes oranges too. You would always steal mine off of my plate. I miss my mornings with you. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, There is a fire inside of my soul. A fire that can’t be contained or controlled. Nothing can separate me from your love. I sit here in bondage awaiting the day that I will be set free. Awaiting the day that you will be returned to me. Groaning for the release of all of this pain. Xoxo- Mommy