Dear Avie, The old layer of my eyes has peeled away. Revealing a new side. My eyes are wide open My mind has opened up inside. I was meant to write these letters to you. I have to keep swimming through it all so that I can be with you. I won’t let the waves take me away. Bring me back to the good days. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I know you are up there playing in the sand. Heaven has endless amounts of sand for you. Save some for me. I can’t wait till I get to play with you again. I want to sit down in the sand with you. We will play in the sand while you hold onto my hand. Laughing and giggling while our toes sit in the salty, salty sand. The water will wash away my…

Dear Avie, You were taken away from me. Ripped away from my arms. How can this be? Do things really happen for a reason? It was all taken away from me. My heart continues to break for you. I need you. You complete me. Help put back the pieces of my heart. Set me free. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, I wake up to kiss you but you are not there. I will continue searching for you. We belong together. I will continue searching even though I know that I won’t be able to find heaven here on earth. I won’t ever be able to find you here. Maybe I will just have to come to you. What can I do when the best part of me will always be you? Xoxo –…

Dear Avie, Mommy misses you so much. I thank my lucky stars for you. I am grateful that I had you next to me. I thought the better days were over and gone forever. I know now that it is up to me to make it all better. I will make sure my better days last forever. You are the only forever I will ever have. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It’s getting harder for me to live my life without you. I need to break free from the misery. I don’t want to feel like everything is out to get me. Can anybody help me? It’s all up to me. I need to set myself free. I want to let it all out. Nothing can stop me. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Death does something to you. It forever changes you. I am not sure of who I have become. I am trying to speak loudly with my words. You are the one who made me feel like I was enough. You made me feel like I had it all. Now my dreams are all falling apart. Everything I know will go away in the end. Help put me back together again. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, Help me dry my tears. I only weep for you. Tears run down my face. They rest upon my lips. I lick the saltiness. It is all that I can taste. The bitter taste. I wish I could turn my tears into tears of happiness. I have tears of pain. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, It’s getting harder and harder for me to stay strong. I must keep holding on. I am looking for a way back in. Please keep holding me. I am becoming a bit unsteady. Don’t wake me now. I am finally sleeping. Xoxo- Mommy

Dear Avie, There is a painful tick- tock of the clock. The days are going by too fast. Nothing can separate me from your love, my sweet. Not even time can take you away from me. I am searching for a reason why. I need to know why. It’s all a big mystery. Will I ever be able to hold you in my arms again? I need to feel your warm embrace. Terror covers up…